trying to drive again.

i checked my email and yesterday, i had contacted my care coordinator about some driving class that my case manager said that was the last driving lessons i took. i'm sure they'll say it's been so long since my last lessons in order for me to be okay'd to take my driving test, so they'll make me take them again. just so what happens last time doesn't happen again- i took the lessons and the guy said i was 100% safe to take the behind-the-wheel driving test for my license, i just needed to get a vehicle and i told brian that they told me i was 100% safe to take the test and i needed a vehicle, so i wanted him to purchase a vehicle for me. he disregarded my email and told me that he wouldn't feel right purchasing an unlicensed driver a vehicle. that kinda tells me that the people supposedly investing money for my trust aren't really doing their jobs because then my trust must be losing money more than gaining when it just pays for cable and my credit card purchases (and i don't buy that many things). God forbid my "advocate" ACTUALLY does her fuckin job and looks at how the money in my trust is being invested! it's not HER income/source of finances.. so she could give a shit less. that's how my family works though.. if it doesn't affect them personally- they don't give a shit. it's not like i'd be looking to purchase an expensive car when i'm just learning to drive again.. the ics workers showed me a place online where other clients of this program get their cars. it's affordable and there's decent used cars on there. i think about EVERY disabled person with their driver's licenses and it's because they have FAMILIES who ACTUALLY SUPPORT and HELP them get what they need to drive! *gasp* if only i had a family who actually cared about helping me become truly successful and not depending on courage kenny distracting me with their shitty ass services to rip medical assistance off to get more money for my rehabilitation that they don't even help with because they'd lose a client if they ACTUALLY assisted me to gain the ability to walk and earn my driver's license again.